because i said so

i didn't ever want to be a mom that said these things but something tells me i will be.

because i am SO close to giving that as EVERY SINGLE ANSWER to EVERY SINGLE QUESTION my students ask me.

i love my students. seriously, they're great. but sometimes, they ask the strangest and most unnecessary questions (i am trying to avoid using certain other adjectives). and i swear, the next one who asks me one of them i am going to look them in the eye and say (with a smile on my face) "oh, just because i said so"

let me give you a couple of examples:

"are we really playing in band today? why?"

"why are we playing the songs in that order?"

"why are we sightreading this music we aren't going to perform?"

"why can't we play a song we played last year that we all really like?"

the list goes on and on and on and on.

counting down... for many many things

there are so many things i am counting down to, some that i'm SO excited for and just can't wait some i am SO ready for them to just be over that i'm counting down.

1. counting down til monday, february 28, the day we find out the gender of the baby! obviously this is one of those things i'm just so excited about and am tired of waiting to find out! so yay for that one.

2. counting down to the bands trip to ireland. this one is mixed for me. i am really excited to be going to ireland. i have never been overseas and know it's going to be beautiful and amaing. but i am also ready to get this trip over with because it has been a lot of preparation (that has not been fun nor would i say going very well) and it's a huge stress off mine and the parents (mainly the parents) back who have been working on this for what seems, forever.

3. counting down to the end of the school year. this may seem a little premature but this has been such a hard year. commuting/ living apart is wearing me out. having com into this job in the middle of the year is wearing me out. the seniors are wearing me out (and the biggest problem, i don't blame them, i was the exact same way when i was a senior- over it!) i am ready to know where we will be living next year and hopefully have a new living situation. i am ready to relax (ha!) for a few weeks before the baby is born. all of those things.

4. counting down to spring break. again, maybe a little premature, since it is still more than 2 months away, but it's my next day off, thanks to the snow. so i'm just a little ready for spring break.

for now that's all i can really think of. but goodness, that's enough! did i mention that i got a flu shot yesterday and really don't feel well at all and have after school rehearsal until 5 for ireland which i am totally dreading. this could be a large reason why i am currently in whine mode.

i hate goodbyes

really, i do.

i cry almost everytime i leave someone or somewhere for a long time.

it has only been made worse by me living in charlotte all week and matt living in columbia all week. i only see him thursday night-sunday night and i hate it. when i leave on sunday night, i cry.

some people have said it has probably been made worse by the hormones of pregnancy which may or may not be true. when we were dating (long distance, the entire time) i would cry every time i left him or he left me. i would cry a few times a week at night from missing him. i just cried a lot then. and i definitely wasn't pregnant then.

the truth is i know this is temporary, or i wouldn't keep doing it. matt graduates the beginning of may and then he can move up here to be with me (and hopefully to find a job!). i just have to endure 12 more weeks. then, hopefully, we will finally say goodbye to having a long distance relationship once and for all!

it's my birthday!

happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday dear me
happy birthday to me.

im 23 today. yipee!